she stopped herself......

she cant stop expecting.....
she cant stop being impatient...
she cant stop her trust fading...
she decided to stop being with him...
but ...........
she cant even stop waiting for him...
she cant even stop missing him....
she cant even stop loving him...
she cant even stop being with him....
but............
then...........
she stopped being herself......

walking in the park...

walking alone in the park..
she let her tears roll over
into the sweat of the run..
she let her dreams shatter
into the rustle of dry leaves..
she let her madness dissolve
into the concrete of the path..
she let her nostalgia of images
go wild into bloom of flowers..
she let her faith go liquid
into the heat of midday sun..
she let herself finish..
at the end of the track.....

I Wonder...........

i wonder...
if i wud b able to hold onto my faith...
i wonder ...
if the smiles wud come round backwards...
i wonder...
if i wud ever b able to let anyone in...
i wonder...
if i wud b able to heal the soul....
i wonder...

Not so Freindly Friends-------

few signs-----
----when try to match their woes with yours .whn ur telling abt ur problms
instead of listening calmly thy add the list of thr problms
-----whn thy put u through a severe guilt trip for forgetting thr bday or anniversary
-----whn thy borrow n thn get amenesic totally forgotten books money CD's etc
------whn two of ur friends cant stand each other
------calling one friend ur best friend in front of ur 3-4 close ones n the treatment
others give u
-----whn thy tell u mean things in name of honesty like hw bad u look with tht scar
or pimple.thy forget tht u too can look in the mirror n judge urself
------whn thy criticize u for anything u do
------whn thy dnt understand ur mind n ur life philosophy but claim to b ur best frnd