beside you........

whn u see blue sky scattered with pure white clouds....
whn u see light shining through darkness.....
whn u walk on dew dropped grass in the park....
whn u smile at the breeze coming through the flowers...
whn u walk in the drizzle ,wet leaves endrosing your face...
whn u listen rustling of dry leaves under your feet...
whn u sit alone on a bench in the park.....
n look up at the sky.....think of me.....
n u will see me beside u under the same sky........
throught the halo of light.....coming through....

Blissful Ecstasy.........

A blissful moment
a state of ecstasy prancing
abt flowers of joy....
pearls all frm whr thy droppeth
the mist swooning around me
in embracing milky way...
the words echoeing in my mind
deep woods thickening
with trees n bushes...
with every step
there comes a breeze of
intense strenght--
an exotic fragrance--
followed by clouds of love..

a stone princess ---a short story..

He was walking through the wonderland on his way to his pursuit of searching for his treasure..he came upon a place where he saw a beautiful princess etched in stone..it didn't seem fair to him to see this princess etched in a stone coz he gave his heart to her at the first moment he saw her..he touched her hand..n loo her heart came alive n it spoke to him.but her heart said sadly to him to go away .her heart told him that she was cursed by a witch to b a stone..n she is destined to b alone..
but he cud not go..he cud not leave her..
he wanted her..n he wanted to see her happy..
for herself n for him....
he told her.."darkness or light , i will always hold your hand tight.."
so he closed his eyes n hugged her n kissed her stoned eyes n when he opened his eyes..he found a beautiful princess in front of him...he fell more in love with her..wanting her more near him...closer to him..in his heart ..in his life...
They were both so engrossed in each other...
more n more in love with each passing moment..
they forgot everything around..
they just got dissolved into each other...
suddenly he remembered his treasure..he looked at her...asking her will she come along n she answered with love in her eyes that she will come along with him wherever he takes her n she will always b beside him forever ever....she wanted to forget her curse for him..for his happiness..for the love of his passion...
So they started walking along the way together, hand in hand with a promise in their voice n hearts that thy will b together no matter what may happen in the pursuit...
They came on the bank of a river ..they have to cross it to go further..they looked into each other eyes n joined hands to fly above the river...
Suddenly when thy were midair ,hand in hand ,a large wild bird came shrieking n screaming.... she got terrified n closed her eyes..suddenly she found herself alone..she was thrown back to the shore ..n looking around he saw him at the other shore of the river........they were separated ... they were standing opposite facing each other looking into each other eyes , unable to comprehend what to do....she wanted to cry coz she remembered her curse...but he cudn't hear her ..they were far away.....
Suddenly a mist starts swooning around..
engulfing everything under its wrap..
she called out his name several times....
she wanted to tell him her curse that if he left her.. she will turn into a stone again...she cud still see him...n hoped for him to weave a miracle ...to rescue her from her curse.....
Soon she was going to turn into stone.....
She looked at him with teary eyes...
she saw him trying to work out something
but he was not able to come back...
his magic powers somehow were blocked ....
they looked at each other helplessly....
the mist was getting thicker n thicker with each moment....
She kept waiting n waiting in a hope with a prayer in her heart ...
Suddenly she found her feet turn into stone n plant firmly into the earth...now she knew she won't be able to go further without being scarred coz of her curse...still she hoped...still she kept waiting ...
She kept wondering if he were ever coming around...
at moments her faith started fading...
but she told herself that he will heal her..
.and won't let any scars remain...
she closed her eyes..
n stretched out her hand in his hope to come back..
She remembered her curse....
n knew that he will have to do something faster..
come back faster otherwise she will be stoned forever...
But with her closed eyes she cudn't see
that she has turned to stone except her eyes ,heart n hands....
She kept waiting..calling out his name through the closed eyes.....
But he didn't come back n she again turned into a stone .....with her curse...

I am happy n I am sad too............

i am happy...... and i am sad too........
i crave being alone but im scared being lonely
im too busy n i hav all the time to think abt u...
i wanna go far away n i wanna b closer to u....
i wanna b real n i wanna live in dreams with u...
i wanna find happy smiles in the battle of freezing tears....
i am happy......and i am sad too.................

Rainbow 2.......

I roared into the thunder..
I cried into the rain...
The strom has passed....
the rain is past......
but i cant see my rainbow..
my sky didn't kneel down
n embrace me in his love....
n i still stand all alone..
standing barefoot....
waiting under the sky....
for his arms to embrace me
n kiss me rainbow.....
n let my soul reach his heart...

Going down the memory lane.....

As I walked down the memory lane
I glimpsed both happiness n pain
I met my innocence
amidst all the ugliness of selfish minds;
ppl faking around,telling lies for no reasons;
acute sensitivity towards ppl
the lingering craving for smeone;
for the truth;for the honesty;
I saw my dreams broken
-the longings unspoken
-my heart shattered
-the pieces scattered
the collected debris put aside
I saw my hurt deppen
n pain subside
the bitterness deeply etched
thn i heard smeone
through the light at the end of tunnel
tht was happiness n hope
"thts me."I said
"going down the lane..."

Riddle of luv

Sitting here,nothing but the memories of u surround me
memories of past,thoughts of future
although the days are fading
yet i still stand here beside the window
waiting n reminscing n getting nostalgic
a hope of light in my heart
for i wonder one day
whn in thoughts i will b deep
u'll come silently ,hold my hand
we will b travelling in the spiral direction
of circle where is in contained ---
the alpha n omega answer to
the riddle of luv....

Hushed voices.......

she kept thinking what to say...
...to stop him from leaving....
she whispered in a hushed voice..
"plz dnt go.."
but he left.....her.......
he went far far away...
with each passing moment
how cud she stop him more??.....
when he cudnt hear her heart.....
so she said nothing more n let him go..
n started retreating in opposite direction ..
to put as much space between them..

passion 's splendour......

I touched u
I felt u
I blushed a litle
I laughed too....
Air like wine blossom in splendour
penetrated deeply in my heart tender
I lived a dream
I weaved a dream
in tht hour of gentleness
whn the passion plays with
stars n kisses

Leaves on my terrace........

Sitting alone on the terrace
i gaze at the leaves.....
thy give inspiration n energy..
no matter whatever the season
thy r always blooming n infusing energy
flowing with the wind beautifully
thy tell that whatever the season or situation
thy cant b deterred...
everything will pass over.....
n things will b as beautiful always as ever...

PAWAN---my angel.......

he's alchemist-turm things into gold with his eyes
his quiet eyes twinkle whn he ventures a shy grin
the gleam of joy in his eyes with silent undercurrents
of luv in thm make mine sparkle too.....
he touches every nuances of life with his gaze
whn he's around,thr touch of magic in air
he looks at the sun n the sunbeams touches the top of tree
he looks at the sky at night n the stars make beautiful music
he has deep intoxicating soothing aura
tht casts an exotic oriental spell
his violet words follow tinting her dreams
with silver of his laughter
his love is like clear cool air of autumn
warmed in sun with bright blue skies
capturing the charm from him
his calm n stillness add upto magical mystique
with him around her......
soft rain is fragnant benediction
sparkling cold a miracle
..stars coming out....a special dazzling smile....
n her heart turns over.........

Beauty in weeds......

dancing in summer breeze
beauty in weed grown strong
reveling in the bud turning to bloom
streching out for the sun
whn the rain is past
clourful n imaginative
in unexpected ways
hold close to the heart
sometimes its better to
b jst urself

pizza carvings.........a short story...

she is having pizza carvings every other day....she smiled n cried at the thought...at the nostalgia....at the memory...at the past..n at the recent happenings...n at the future loneliness.....
Her life is undergoing a major series of changes..n life is moving at a much more faster speed thn her thoughts...in a way this episode is a hallmark of a typical experience-the dark night of soul,need for help to come out of sad despair n the responding n soothing voice n support n the sense of transformation...
Either she may kill the silence n heal her soul or get killed in the woods n turn into a fairy with a magic wand....wishing n weavening everyone around her miracles ....but unfazed by her surroundings....staying lost in her own world...in her wonderland.....
Her loss has left her feeling sad n brittle...she was alone..she was all alone...she was completely alone...she doesnt want to dissolve her sadness into tears n outbrusts.....of anger,guilt,remorse,desperation....she knows n feels n understands her situation n wht it feels to want something..wht desire means......wht it means not to quit...n stay n wait...
sometimes she felt she understands everything but then she wud get distracted by fears n unanswered questions....often she was overcome with a desire to forget everything n sometimes she had the opposite instinct-to put as many oceans as possible inbetween.to close every door behind her..........
all this experience was bringing a nascent interior shift...
This is the moment to look n find the kind of healing n peace tht may only come from within...time to gain back her strength n confidence...in the end..to b able to fall in luv with herself.....
To stop a carving for something you hav to start a carving for something else..to stop carving for pizza u hav to start eating something else...like to stop missing someone you have to start missing something else ..immerse yourself into something else...to divert your mind..anything that makes u smile just a little......anything n everything....
but as of now she wanted to solve the mystery..she doesnt want to b entwined in some more drama coz her spirit was depleted n she felt all alone...she wanted to give her space to discover what she look like....
what are her choices?...
when she gets lonely..she thinks..hey b lonely ..sit with it..welcome the experience..
she is learning her way through n around loneliness with pizza carvings n enjoying the pleasure of eating it...with nostalgia...with memories...n giving her the strength n power to heal herself...to b able to fall in luv again... with herself...n her wonderland............
n thn she finds a tear at the corner of her eye reminiscing the pharase "femme pizza fete"of happier times.....n she again get a carving for pizza......

my beautiful bride......4 my darling pooja...

whn happiness fills ur heart
as ur little gudiya blossoms into a bride
it didnt happen overnight
whn gurguling laughter is a demure smile
n those impish outbrusts hav disappeared
instead thr graveful serene charm
gleam of joy in her eyes make urs sparkle
see tht shy beautiful bride
turn into ur little gudiya again
two thoughts were so mixed up
ur happy for her joy
ur sad for ur joy
but both ways ur winner...

Wht every woman shoud have in her control.....

*a feeling of control over destiny.....
*enough money within her control to b able to move out n rent a place of her own even if she nvr wants to or needs to...
*a youth she's content to leave behind......
*smething perfect to wear if her dreamguy want to see her in an hour...
*a gud piece of furniture ,not previously owned by her family...
*a driving sense n power so tht she wnt ever b stranded in any emergency...
*eight matching plated n an recipe for a meal tht will make her guests feel honoured...
*a set of screwdrivers n drill n hw to use thm...
*a past gud enough tht she's looking forward to retelling it in her old age....
*one old luv she can imagine going back to and one who remind her how far she has come....
*to knw wht she will stand for n wht she wnt ever do....
*one friend who always makes her laugh and one who lets her cry....

Finding way through the mystery........

The only thing more unthinkable thn leaving was staying.....
the only thing more impossible thn staying was leaving.....
she kept thinking wht to say...
...to stop him from leaving.......
...to stop life turning into smashing bits....
she knows what it means to want something.....
..........what desire,not to quit means.......
she was alone.....she was all alone......
she was completely alone.......
she may kill the silence......n heal her soul.....
or she may get killed in the woods ......
n turn into a fairy with a magic wand...
she is a princess and an alice...
finding her soul n her way...
through the mystery....

She LOST n He LOST.......

wht went wrong.

he was the most imp guy in her life untill one day...
untill one day suddenly he needed more personal space.
untill one day he started to retreat.....
untill one day he suddenly started emotional back stepping..............
his withdrawal only made her more needy n her neediness only advanced his withdrawal....
untill soon he was retreating with greater spped unless he is imposed with sme reason to stay back............
his attention started wavering..........
all the consequences were easily forseeable but she cudnt see.....
...still in hope tht he wud realize tht its not tht she cudnt leave him n go but its tht she doesnt want to leave him n go away frm him.........
he treated her as like she is someone he nvr met,much less smeone he luved with high passion.........
he became inaccesible............
in the end she lost hope.
she lost.........

I Luv my Dark Circles..........

Surfing through newspaper ,saw an AD by Vaseline to promote a skin lighening product for men (ah very rarely otherwise the onus for getting fairer remains on the women all the time)
The campaign has launched a application on FB that allows men to upload their picture and “transform” it to a “new and improved fairer” them, just like the product will do. Attempt to look fair and promote ‘white’ as beautiful ……
The degree of fairness, from “very fair” to “fair” to “wheatish” seems to be the most important…. complexion takes precedence over educational qualification and occupation…
The real issue is not the application or ad but the mind-set…
Coming back to my gender I thought abt the vast market of fairness crèmes-500$million a year in India alone…whooping amount tht we spend on being fair….n its rather icky reminder of the pigment-o-crasy tht exist in our country or may b in many cultures….
N at the basic system not realizing tht our basic colour being Indians is wheatish generally n one tht is beautiful in our culture n weather n we are not blondes n we not living in USA etc….
This is ridiculous….
This reminds me of another personal incident whn I went to buy a face wash n while I was deciding which one to buy(I hav nvr stuck to any particular brand..will buy n use anything..) the new eager salesgirl pestered me to buy a undereye dark circle crème explaining its miraculous benefits in 14 days n my eyes(to b specific my undereyes or dark circles) in intense need of it…I kept listening till the time I choose n paid for my facewash.then I looked at her n told her calmly n sweety –“dear im in luv with my dark circles ..i dnt want a cure for them”all of a sudden everyone looked at me stunned n with bewilderment..but I left thm tht way n came off …but tht set me thinking………..
Are only fair people lovely?
Y our obsession with white skin?
Y do we use fairness products?
Y not we in luv with our dark circles n pimples?
Y not we in luv with wht we are?the way we are?
May b its easy for me to say ths coz I hav been gifted with beautiful complexion tht glows frm within n which had been the envy of my siblings since childhood…my cheeks were pinched hurtedly like googly wooghly ad till the time I started revolting…
But tht the reason more easy for me to say ths…I nvr had any hang-up’s abt my complexion yes I do luv it but simply coz I own it not coz ppl are amazed at it….i wanna take girls by shoulders n tell them tht luv urself…
Luv ur complexion..luv your dark circles..luv your pimples n scars….
There is more to u thn your beauty n skin-its your mind..your heart..your soul…enhance its beauty..dnt fall prey to stupid products thy cant change your genes …yes do care abt yourself in terms of hygiene…beilieve in your basic beauty..

For me-pimples dark circles complexion are part of me..my idenitity..my being its wht im ..n the way im..they define me n so they beautiful coz I own them ..thy are truly mine.i want to instill n enhance endurance ,gentleness ,compassion, tenderness, luv n care today n always in me to feel n remain beautiful ever……
Confidence is the most sexiest thing a girl can have…..believe in u n the world believes in you……….
Thts the reason I luv my dark circles

walking away............

he saw her n fell in love immediately
they were soulmates-simply described..
with him...she found herself....
he started walking along with her..
she cudn't remember..
he wudn't forget...
untill one day...
they came upon a crossroad...
where...n there....
he didn't want to remember..
she cudn't forget...
there wasnt enough time...
to forget n to remember....
n so he left her....lost.....

a short story--waiting on a bus stop

She was waiting for her bus at the bus stop.she was wearing a ankle long dark grayish toned skirt n a white top n she thought she looked gud as she was going to her fresher’s party at her new college….
She was getting late it was peak afternoon hours with little traffic on road .she kept looking down the road but thr was no sign of the bus…n she was afraid she might miss her welcome party of her new college which she didn’t want to miss .it was her new day a new start into the college…
Suddenly a guy pulls up on his bike n stops at the bus stop..whn he removed his head gear ..she saw a very gorgeous tall n handsome young guy..he had those giant brown liquid centre eyes that unstiched her heart…she gave him her heart right away…..she looked at him she knew him already…
But it seemed she hadn’t ever seen him , noticed him ever bfr…..
He stopped n asked wht is she doing thr at the bus stop..she told him tht she is waiting for the bus..he offered to wait with her..they kept chatting along with waiting for the bus…
Looking at him for few moments she forget wht she was doing at the bus stop n she wished tht the bus nvr comes she wanted to jst keep looking at ths guy …she hadn’t seen him bfr...…she kept wishing for the bus not to come..
But there were many reasons y tht wud b a terrible idea…???“Excellent question” especially when she kept looking secretly n shyly at the handsome guy standing in front of her…but coz he was the handsome terrific prince ….they lived in different worlds….
So(out of her mind n thoughts) thy kept chatting…….
Then he offers to drop her at the college..…she knew she shdn’t say yes ….but she cudnt say no to him..she cud hav traded anything to b with ths guy for some more time…..if she refused his offer he wud hav left n gone his way leaving her to wait again....
n its not everyday n everytime a prince pulls up n she knew tht it may b first n last chance for her to b as close to him as tht..she was being selfish…but just purely as a matter of chance...
So she takes the offer……..But oops……….
Just then her bus comes n pulls up parallel to his bike whr she was standing...
For tht moment tht split second her heart n her mind get into a conflict…
Her heart tells her to ignore the bus as she was the only who knew her bus number noone wud know…n her minds tells her tht dnt lie..
but she doesn’t listen to her mind n steals tht moment…
n so she rides to college with him on the way he talked a bit but she wasn’t listening wht he was saying she answered in monosyllabus…so tht he may keep on talking she didn’t mind wht he was talking as long as he was talking..she was lost was absorbing every moment.. his closeness….
At last he drops her to college …he drops her n goes n nvr looked back..
Someone asked her “was he your boyfriend ? “n she answered , no he wasn’t but he was the dream guy n she met him first n last time…

Nostalgic Haven for 2 hours at CCD-35-PART 2

11 july CCD-35 11.15 AM to 1.15 PM

Cool choclate frappe breeze’s with hot capichinoo’s with a dash of strawberry blush

We missed u agam(dinesh shangari’s rockstar)

We missed you tanish(himanshu n meghna’s diamond)

We missed u akshmit n amiksha (ravi n gunjan’s jewels)

We missed u arsh(sunita’s little prince)

We missed u Krishna(vandana n pawan’s little darling)

We loved u saddil (sunita n sushil’s elder prince)

We loved u jeevesh(vandana n pawan’s elder supersonic hero)

We loved u both for your unconditional presence n your sweetness n your curioisity n your acceptance to our precious friend circle…

It all started whn rajan came to chandigarh n met me n himanshu n proposed ths plan of getting together n having a blast seeing each other after 20 years n adding on the pleasures of knowing everyone with families n kids.so the plan was set.sunita was supposed to come to India from scottland in june end(hahahah sunita see I remember now, pawan taught me the whole map of UK to let me know after tht day whn I cudnt recollect at the party whr u live,thts y pawan is so sweet..he fills the gaps for me with a smile..) so the plan was set for july whn she comes n everyone on fb affirmed to accommodate tht time span……

Sunita came n called n we met n she filled the gap of so my years in few hours thts wht sunita is-breaking the ice in min..she seemed as if was frozen in time she hadn’t changed in looks n nature over the years…jst had two more reflections of her in the shape of saddil n arsh…

Me n himanshu n sunita had few conversations of the event first we decide to hav a complete family get together with spouses n kids- complete family blast..then sunita suggests tht shd we try meeting as individuals to catch the years first n thn plan a family meet..her idea was thought provoking..wht if spouses didn’t gel?wht if ourselves were uncomfortable?himanshu was comfortable with both the options I tell pawan abt sunita’s thought but. it was left to me to decide…..

N I hadn’t decided anything..everything remained unplanned…I decided to go on impulse ….deciding on the way to everyone’s reactions n responses…

So on Saturday I call first of all dinesh(hadn’t ever yet called him bfr) a bit apprensively if he may recognize. But he recognized immediately n was all the way for the event-happy to accommodate in every way he had powerful vibrations of leadership n positive strength .i tell him abt the lunch plan on mon or tues but alas he was to go to Bhopal on Sunday the 11^th n he had to drive himself n he wud hav been back in mid aug..oh by the time sunita wud hav left….but he wanted to make it work out..he didn’t want the plan go kaput coz of him…I tell him tht I wud call him back if smething works out ..he talked so sweetly it didn’t feel tht I hadn’t talked to him for 20 years he has a vibrance abt him….

So ravi dewan is called up n lo! He has to leave for noida on Sunday at 4 pm n so he wanted to b back home by 2 pm or so for last minute packing n stuff n he will b back next week n thn he goes off to Mumbai for his new posting…but he too wanted it to wrk n ready to accommodate if smething can b wrked out I tell him tht I call him back if smething works out..

So I call himanshu n he suggests y not plan smething on Sunday…n let it b coffee plan instead of lunch…thnx himanshu he played as much role in planning….he decided the venue too which wud b comfortable for everyone n he offered to fulfill the sunita’s request to pick her from her home …..he had no problems with tht n sunita too can accommodate on sunday her hubby hasn’t yet arrived in India…aha but me…I hate going out without pawan on Sunday’s.i always try to keep my Sunday’s for him exculisvely….but smething has to b done I sincerely wanted it to happen …..

So I call up my darling hubby n tell him the plan tht we are planning on Sunday n will he come along?n he says he doesn’t hav any plans for Sunday with me abt going to any event yet so we may plan n tht  u ppl go ahead n meet n njoy….

So I call back everyone n plan for Sunday 11.30 am for coffee everyone called n confirmed….

I go home at 9 pm n my dear hubby asks after dinner so whts your plan for tmrw?

I tell him the plan n he responds tht he has a imp meeting with someone at 10am at sec 33 n he may get a bit late but he will come directly to CCD u go on time n I will join u thr…n I look at him spellbound......ths was unexpected  but thts wht it was thr for me……

..hahahahahah….

So I say him nothing n send text msg at 10 pm to ravi dewan n himanshu to bring thr wives along I had to  make sure tht thy come  meghna was in pkl but he msg tht she wud come..i had told gunjan in even tht it’s jst individuals meet n so I had to make sure tht she comes along..so tht she feels invited …I sincerely wanted them to come thnx beautiful n gorgeous meghna n gunjan for coming along..thnx dear …

I want to thank everyone for coming coz everyone accommodated for ths event in a special way…thnx my dear friends…..

So on Sunday everything goes as per plan n I call up everyone to b on time….dinesh calls back to ask shd he book a table for all of us bfrhand tht was so nice of him ….ravi said tht he n gunjan will b thr by 11.29 am..hahahahah…I tell himanshu to b thr 15 min bfrhand to see if thr is anything to b done with sitting arrangements etc n he says he n meghna will b thr….at 11 sunita calls n say tht she has to bring the kids somehw n can I bring jeevesh along for kids company n I say yes ..i had my heart’s desire fulfilled I had wanted to take him along since night but it wasn’t planned so I had dropped the idea but sunita waved a magic wand n fulfilled my wish thnx sunita hahahah thts a secret…but I cudnt inform everyone else to bring the kids everyone wud hav started frm home..so I go along…

In the car I tell nanu tht we are going for a party to meet my school friends n his volley of intelligent n curious questions started n continued all the way he was surprised tht I too went to school like he goes n I too hav best friends but he was not able to understand the gap of so many years he kept asking wht u all did whn u left school y u didn’t b in touch..i had few answers n I didn’t hav few answers……

So along with his questions we reach thr by 11.15 am he tells me tht lets check inside if thr is anybody we can go in otherwise we can chill in the car  so I open the CCD door n first of all catch the glimpse of a s man n a gud looking grl n a guy sitting nearby I look at them n trying to recognize if thr is anyone I know..hahahahah jst then two hands wave at me aha it was himanshu n meghna thy were thr…handsome n beautiful couple…meghna looked beautiful .with a freshness n charm..we meet say hi n were jst checking the things tht sunita enters with saddil.she looks dashing..we take seats n start talking..jst then ravi n gunjan comes..gunjan’s gorgeous carried herself with élan n lokked so much at ease as if with her own friends..n tht was so comfortable jst then dinesh comes n say hi im dinesh…he has no hang up’s hes so comfortable ..everyone starts coming .. after pawan comes we order our coffee n in the last arun comes n whn he started talking he had tons of things to tell he had a nvr ending memories of school he was so jovial n notorious ahh but he remembered the most jokes abt teachers n students n  so we add up n hav a blast reminiscing getting nostalgic laughing a lot totally oblivious of our surroundings…time did run up but we were all filled with laughs n memories n plans for future n missing the others n we had a blast

This is wht I gather of everyone n I wud like to share with …

DINESH-he’s calm ,collected ,brilliant,confident n notices little things n he lives in future.a strong vibration of leadership qualities.he’s cherrful treating life with fine calm.he doesn’t bother to bother anyone with nonessential data..ready to accomomodate to the maximum for anyone he calls his friend.he ios a friend’s guy. N always available for a party.

RAVI-he is still the same-shy n sincere n brilliant n he’s so modest.,down to earth-his feet firmly planted on earth….very soft spoken n ready to accommodate for his friends.to him caution is the word for beginning of wisdom .thr is serenity in his nature.

GUNJAN-she’s elegant, very femimine, gorgeous ,stylish ,hip- hop social ,carries herself with oodles of charm n confidence n wears beautiful accessories n she’s beautiful.

SUNITA-aha she’s graceful n  frozen in time-like kept in fridge all these years.jst two more reflections of her saddil n arsh..she still has the best smile n she’s dashing n smart n can break the ice with her beautiful smile n her sweetest hug

ARUN-he’s jovial n notorious.at few instances u cant cecide if u laugh or cry at his jokes he can make u roll on the floor with his antecodes abt school n his general observations n hey thnx for the party arun

HIMANSHU-he’s shy ,deeply emotional guy,a cool breeze,he fills the surrounding with his presence tht define peace loveliness n perfection n friendly behaviour n he talks practical..n to the facts.

MEGHNA-she defines freshness n charm,cool n friendly,down to earth,leans very much toward devotion n  near worship of family.she views “the ties tht bind” with respect...for her relationships are cozy n comforting n tht defines her genral attitude towards everyone she meets.she fills the atmosphere with her softness n sensitivity.

We may not ever b able to bring back our childhood  but ths party stirred nostalgia n made new memories ,reliving past ones n planning for mew ones….but friends keep u connected to your childhood with thr sweet charm

THNX EVERYONE FOR COMING TO THE PARTY.BLESS U ALL.

Nostalgic Haven for 2 hours at CCD-35-PART 1

School-the first institution when u emerge into the soceity out of parent's lap n our comfortable homes n start to get known as individuals.Friendships greet u when u enter school-school grade friendships.you share memorable time with school friends .we promise to b best friends for all life-kids promise..n then we end up school n enter the professional n carrer world n we get lost in building carrers n families.we build new friends n we get professional commimtments..you grow over the years in terms of family n carrers n life.life brings different course for everyone.everyone gets his share of blessings n tradgies.n u get absorbed into life's moving pace....
but somewhr in everyone's heart there is a special corner----a corner whr he/she preserves the school time n school friends--tht daring adventures ..tht first crush...marks competition.. groups of class ..tht jealousy tht luv tht care...teachers punishments n esp tht school bonding tht happens irrespective of ur parent's status.....irreseptive of caste colour n creed...thts pure bonding...
i too had a special place for my school friends n tht school bonding but somehw lost contact within the life's moving track.but every year on 13 jan(vijay) ,31 aug(himanshu) ,28 sep(poonam) ,17 oct(sunita) ,17 nov(rajan) i remembered my school friends as these were thr bday dates...(no offence to others coz i remembered jst these bday smehw but i remembered everyone as my short n lost memory permitted) i used to tell pawan(my boyfriend ,my best friend and my hubby) school things since the day i met him.n had a small dream somewhr in my heart to get a chance to reconnect to school friends n let pawan know them for real....
First of all friends.well,to say that this account of events is totally mine would b bit untrue.the wonderful ppl present in ths account of events made this product..but yes this is my take on it.this is my story n i get to tell it my way.anyone of u can add your versions n comments into it..so first i wud like to thank them all n in particular----
1.VIJAY-the studious shy guy of my class who was not present in ths event but who was missed sincerely .the way he is-sincere --the word tht best describes him.he was the one who found me on orkut without my display pic(how??tht remains a mystery to me till date..may b going through the profile info..) n so we started scrapping interacting talking n building the gap of 20+years.me n vijay were classmates plus neigbhours at home too,so it was easy.we joined friends lists at orkut n FB.n we talked about finding other classmates.
2.HIMANSHU-the handsome shy n sweet (cud hav been called cutie pie if he had been a girl hehehehe)shy guy of my class..i got to see his profile in friends suggestions on fb for many days bfr i sent him a msg.n alternately checked with vijay".is tht himanshu from my school class?".n he responded very friendly n happily to found old classmates..himanshu scanned all the pic of our school times that i digged from old cardboxes hidden in  my storeroom.thnx himanshu.n he's is the one who encouraged n supported to arrange ths event..otherwise i may hav given up coz tht saturday i was calling up everyone in midst of working with my patients at my office n from planning for proper lunch came to plan for brunch n thn to coffee...thn checking everyone availability, thn venue thn informing everyone , n thn conforming everyone presence n responses....from settling on bringing family then to individuals  n in the end spouses...ah lot of work n distraction among my office.most of patients tht day knew whr cud  thy find me on sunday if thy needed(im unavailable for patients on sunday except for emergencies.) so the encouragement n deciding the venue n its location was done by himanshu.thnx himanshu.
3.RAJAN- we missed u rajan at the party every moment sincerely coz he's the one who proposed all ths but being in stamford he wasnt present physically but he was present in everyone's heart .rajan-the classmate who had the maximum num of sis in his class n he really cared for us like sisters...he wasnt studious in school n stammered a lot esp whn he was scared whnever mrs.bajwa, our english teacher called him to check his homework... but was  caring n simple n daring.we had classroom at fourth floor of school building n he wud jst sit on the edge of terrace with legs hanging (the scene from 3 idiot)thts wht he was n wht he proved in life.he nvr looked seroius abt books in school but rose to height in his carrer after doing IIT from delhi...today he's confident poised n successful intellectual guy but still the same ..down to earth..n still live for his friends..he's a friends guy....... he can break ice in seconds n can make u laugh n cry both at the same time with memories n jokes....we are proud of u rajan.we missed u rajan at CCD(rajan is a coffee freak)so one day he came to chd (his mom stays in chd) called n came to my office expectdly or unexpectdly..can't say..coz till tht day me n himanshu although being in same city hadnt tried or thought of meeting up.Even i jst kept telling pawan updates whnever something new happened.so the three of us met n it was rajan who proposed the get together.so thnx rajan for filling the gap of 20+ years.thnx bro.we are proud of u rajan.
4.POONAM--the hari mirchi girl of the class..u cudnt hav taken panga with her anyday.she was straight forward vry tiny mature pratical n ready for a fight if u tried to tip on her toes even if a bit..she was the sweetest girl..no hang ups down to earth n mature....i met her 1-2 years back whn me n pawan had gone to deliver a diwali gift to someone n at thr entrance we saw a vry familiar looking tiny girl standing on the entrance at the neighbour's door seeing off someone waving gudbye...n suddenly pawan n she recognized(pawan has a vry sharp memory in terms of everything ppl or places) we met we hugged we felt happy but as we were in hurry n it was diwali day..n so we exchanged num n promised to b in touch.she didnt remember suinta's num at tht time but she was in touch with her.i called her back twice on her delhi num but somehw she wasnt available coincidently n so i gave up .saved her num but forgot abt it till the day himanshu n vijay persuaded me to call her n so i called her apprensively but she was still the same...luv u poonam...we reconnected immediately  n thn sunita came into picture...we missed u poonam at the party n we look forward to meeting samir(her hubby) n ur two little princess........
5.SUNITA-the smart trendy girl of the class ..best friends with poonam..me poonam n sunita use to triple ride on my vespa scooter in class 11th-12th whn i had my license made n pawan too met thm few times along with me n thy bonded well....whn i send him a msg on fb she was so happy n exicted n whn she responded she filled the gap of so many years in split second..thts wht sunita is-she makes u feel at ease n friends u never lost....bfr sunday get-toether i went to her home to meet her n she made the atmosphere as if we were never apart..she had always been here with me..she remembered a lot of things.her two little princes(saddil n arsh)were also sweet n surprised at seeing mom's school friend.....we relived our 20 years life of building families n kids...luv u sunita for everything..
6.RAVI  DEWAN-when i sent a msg to ravi on fb tht ths is vandana frm ur class 10th n he responded  back friendly n happily tht he left the school after class 8th n i thought oops i didnt know or didnt remember...but hw can anyone from our class cud hav forgotten ravi dewan---he was the sincere reserved shy intelligent n heaviest guy of class.he never talked to girls..i suppose.he came to our school in class 7th may b from talwara n he was pretty gud at maths specially.whn he came to class we were preety use to our class positions in exams--vishal jaiswal-1st ruchi-2nd for 3rd n 4th postion it was me or navneet or vijay n suddenly ravi comes n holds our positions...he comes as competition n in a way i was jealous but he was vry shy n simple so thr was no offence....but today he's not the heaviest guy haahahaha lot of guys match more or less to him hahahaha
7.DINESH-he was the handsome guy of our class. n the problem was tht tht he knew it so he had a attitude abt it or it was as we girls felt so...yup on sunday we realized we were wrong definately he was handsome but he wasn't egoist....who didnt care much for studies..average but was daring n confident n friend's guy n gave a kinda damn to world n nvr talked to girls..girls thought he was rude but the fact was tht he was reserved n kept to boys ....did whtever he felt was right n always stood up for his friends n he's still the same....thnx dinesh for ur time tht day...he had to drive to bhopal on sunday but he postponed tht by few hours for ths get together n called to ask tht shd he book n reserve the table for us ppl in advance?tht was so sweet n caring of him for all his friends..we care for u dinesh..thnx dinesh..
8.ARUN- he was known as himanshu's best friend .they were always seen together-arms in arms..they sat together they played together..few ppl thopught either they are brothers or cousions...the movie DOSTANA hadn't released at tht time otherwise we wud hav been misled by thr dosti..hahahahah.he was tall n notorious ..didnt know but he looked notorious n himanshu was vry shy so thy covered each other flaws n noone cud judge anything abt them...so arun who came at last in the party n who paid the bill for the party as per my info(if anyone else paid the bill..plz do the corrections)
9..MEGHNA-she is himanshu's wife--she is calm collected a cool breeze of freshness vry friendly down to earth...i  invited her at 10 pm n still she accmodated she was  in pkl but still she came..n we geled perfectly at ease thnx meghna.
10.GUNJAN-she is ravi's wife-she is stylish , hip hop, carried herself with panache wore beautiful acceessories n n looked charming.she too was invited at 10pm n she had to pack ravi's suitcare as he was to leave for noida at 4pm on sunday but still she accepted the invitation n came along we were happy to see u among us gunjan.thnx gunjan..
10.SADDIL-sunita's elder prince ..with his scootish accent n who is calm n intelligent n who loves sports n video games n reading books
11-JEEVESH-me is my super hero-the second love of my life..he is non fussy intelligent mini adult totally upto pawan in nature n gudwill n looks like my carbon copy with both of us with our spectacles on....luv u baby-yours bhabi ma(he calls me bhabi ma)
12-PAWAN-wht i say of him ..words are less to describe this man..he's finest of human beings whom god has bestowed upon me as a blessing..he is the best i cud hav ever asked in life-a perfect hubby,a perfect father,n a perfect son.a caring n loving brother to his siblings my best friend-.he keeps a busy schedule given his social circle n multiple responsibilites n carrer complusions but still he pulled out time for me n  came along without any fuss...he came late after finishing one of his meetings but he came n stayed n geled with the guys comfortably thnx pawan....
       so guys n girls nw as i hav made my disclaimers n introductions let me continue to tell u events of the party n i hope reading it u may relive the memory n vijay rajan n poonam can too relive the time spent vividly with all of us.....
PART 2 TO FOLLOW.........................

gifts of life...n hardships of life......

The sky is moonlit n stars shining bright
i wanna stay n gaze at the sky
swril of emotions in my heart
see this beauty perfectly n beautifully...
my soul wanna express joy..
for rewarding n cherished gift
i toiled hard in the fields all day
im tired n hungry n my home far away
so i must walk,must walk.....coz....
life is mixture of complexities...
brave beyong belief,,,,
lived simply...every moment.....

Rainbow

I stand here roaring into the thunder
my eyes drizzling with rain
i wanna my sky to kneel down
n kiss me rainbow
n let my soul reach to embrace ..
n let the strom turn beautifully
from inside to outside
n complete the circle of love